quote:

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Sick of this life
Not that you'd care
I'm not the only one with
whom these feelings I share

Nobody understands,
quite why we're here
We're searchin' for answers
That never appear

But maybe if I looked real hard I'd
I'd see your tryin' too
To understand this life,
That we're all goin' through

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That's what I want to understand - am I alive, or merely flogging a horse? Is that the case with anyone else on this board, that life has become such a drag that you can't wait til you just want to go to sleep? Sometimes there are days when you feel so burnt out you can't motivate yourself to do something you actually like.
Yes, sometimes I just want to kill myself because I'm sooooooo bored with life. But, at the same time, I can't, because something inside me tells me not to, that I'll go to Hell if I do (thank you very much religion for the whole guilt thing...)
Sorry for this post people. This probably don't sound like me, I'm just completely annoyed with exam revision, and the way exams seem to take over your life for a couple of months, when people keep saying "why aren't you revising?". People ask how revision's going and you don't want to say anything, you hate answering questions, you just want to shout "Go join the F****** detective branch if you're just gonna ask me some F****** questions!!" Yes, I hate exams. I acknowlegde that they are a fact of life, and do not have problems taking exams, but that can't stop me hating them. (runs out of energy to type more vitriol...) Sorry about this guys, I'm just annoyed with the standstill of my life. If you wanna have a go at me, telling me about my self-piteous drivel, fire away.
Oh yeh, that above quote could apply to The Matrix Reloaded, because of the way the characters (and we, the audience) all search for the answers to questions that never seem to be answered.